Sometimes when I’m trying to fall asleep at night, my brain starts to spin around with to-do lists, ideas for color and patterns, for things I’d like to write about and share with all of you. My body might be tired but my mind lights up like a Christmas tree.
Have you ever seen a video (or maybe in real life?) of the Eiffel Tower lighting up at night? It sparkles for about five minutes every hour after dark. That’s what my brain feels like when I lie down at night. It sparkles. It lights up with what feels like a million little light bulbs. Each one, a new thought, a new idea, or a new thing to add to the list of things to research or to do.
It’s not always like this though. Sometimes it feels like my mind goes into a hibernation period. It could last a week or two, maybe even a year or two. I often find myself feeling a little frustrated when I’m in hibernation mode. I feel like I’m not doing anything productive. I’m not creating or making anything with my hands. Right before I start to feel completely lost, I start to feel something simmering underneath all of the quiet.
I’m learning to appreciate both sides of my creative process. I’ve realized that I need the quiet to balance the creative waves that hit. I need the energy of creating to balance the times when I’m just dreaming. I have to just hang on tight to this pendulum and let it swing back and forth.
I’m in the production, energetic, ‘sparkling’ period right now and it feels so good. I have so many ideas right now and can’t seem to weave fast enough. I’m going to be updating my shop more often and I’ll try to update this journal more as well. Its fun to share this with you all. If you’d like to be the first to know when new pillow covers are up in the shop- sign up for the newsletter or follow me on Instagram (@yellowbirdtextileco). Thank you to all of you who keep coming back to my little corner of the textile world.